Up and working!!

Hee...I tHink im really too free lah...nothing to do..then decided to choose a skin that is provided by blogger...coz its simple and is in green!...Spent some time doing the pics...hee some are too small to be seen...but nvm lah next time then i do it again! haha..yesterday went out with my secondary sch friends...its a small gathering with chentat,kk,kk,cuihuan,xinger,xiuyan...hee it was great...after some time nv meet up...as usual lah the click all crappers..haha..joke here and there...we went Love Fish n co...then after that went TCC for a drink of coffer...me, kk and cuihuan were too full lah...so we decided to share ...we ordered...this Iced minty mocha! haha well not much of minty and its a bit too sweet leh...haha iM always a fan of mint...so will prefer drink thats minty...it gives a cool refreshing feeling...hmmm just now...got dont know what planes...keep flying pass my house area...scare me to hell lah...i tot 911 is coming to singapore! haha it was so loud lo!! so so loud!I was thinking maybe its once a yr national day rehersal? haii..my ears...but nvm as long as its not 911...haha...and yesterday there was a huge fire lah!! near my house...its at ave 10...big carpark got 1 big lorry on fire 1!!! phew...and the black smoke!! haha i can see only the smoke lah...as for y i know is a lorry? haha my parents just happened to pass by there in a bus after work...and they..too curious so went to kpokpo...and there i know loh! haha wonder if the news got put? haha i missed the news though...haaha

Hmm.. today is rotting at home le loh...boring..but baby is coming over for dinner...hee..baby having sore throat hope will recover soon! hee

After so long....

...After so long...i decided to write again...not because Im feeling down...just feel like updating my blog...I was searching high and low to find skin and how to organise my stuffs..but after so long of searching i still use back this skin...haha...i added a song...which i personally like alot...I heard it on 绿光森林 show...oh..the show is so nice!! hee....We have been together for 9 Months coming to 10th...time seems to pass so fast! I have been to bangkok 2 times this yr ...1 with him and 1 with parents. then i also went rawa island...with yee...hui...pacer...the island is really nice...for relaxation!...we went kayaking...snorkeling...feed the fishes...the people there are nice...the food there are fantastic!show pic...soon...havent scan those water pics in! haha...everyday eat till full till wanna vomit de! haha..but it was really superb!

The most interesting night is the last night...we mix around with the pple there...and oh man...one of the waiter can play the piano so well!!...Im so impressed! haha...then in the end we all join in with his gang...and pacer's piano skill is awesome!! alamak! then in the end i sing a few songs...so malu! But really enjoy it! haha...then recently i went phuket...ahaha did jetskiing...i was scared lah...so lousy!! but my baby infront of me...so i was hugging him tight haha...he is very naughty!! Keeps going faster and i kept screaming behind loh! haaha...it was fun! he continued with parasailing! aiyoyo..that one i really scared! so i didnt attempt...But Bravo to my baby!! haha Everything there talks $$$ so luckily we have cheaper hotel! My student's parents hotel! cool right?! hee...then we had dinner at this savoery seafood restaurant!...wow!! we ate a total of abt 70 sing dollar of seafood...Got lobster....Fish....clam...sotong!...so yummy!! i think is cheap!! for 2 person! and got lobster lah1 hee..We also went Phi Phi island for snorkeling...And tour around some of the islands...and mountain? rocks? haha....I was alittle piss with baby...coz... he keep screaming at me while we in the sea! I dont like it...but its over lah haha...and he gave me a RING!Not to propose lah! haha...but to confirm that i will not run away? haha...Then basically im still having holidays now! pretty rot lah! haha...nothing to do...I am a teacher to be loh...starting 24th july! will be a primary sch teacher! i admit i love kids but i wonder if i can control a class of kids?! haha..lets see...i will go thru the training first and see if im suitable loh haha...ok lah i will stop...meeting baby..and dont wanna be late...update soon! hee

What is love?

Sometimes i really ponder...however...i learnt the meaning of love as compromising....understanding...trust...sensitivity...concern and lots and lots of other things! Is not easy to handle a relationship i must say...recently...we have alittle arguement on certain things...his fickle mindedness and indecisiveness...i mean i cant just look at the bad points and forget about his good points and leave him aside....if im so then ill be very selfish...if in the past maybe i was like that ba....now i learnt to compromise ba! think thats a very important factor in a relationship... i guess it is very important to give and take....i know at times im a little stubborn...but thats me mah...cant help it...he said he will change....but i know i have to change my attitude also lah! so stubborn !! haha...

but so far i must say...he is the best bf i ever had loh...i still love him so much!! as much as the sand in the dessert....as much as the water flowing from the tap.....as much as the stars in the sky......simply uncountable loh! does he know that? its not anger that i had for him...but is disappointment and sadness.! but i guess thats life and we grow thru all these mistakes. we have been meeting.....and im happy abt it ...... long way ahead of us and i hope we can both work together on it ( relationship)....yeah!!!

22/9/05 (Guess whats the occasion?)

Its 1 Month monthiversary! haha so so happy! it seems like the first day we get together but on the other hand...it seems like we are together for quite long le! hee..i dont know how to describe this feelings of mine! so far...i have been enjoying being so in loved! haha ...so mushy! haha...i just never felt so happy n xinfu before...but is he really the final one? hmmm...i have been pondering.. and of coz i definitely hope that he will be the last man standing with me at ROM haha...but i dare not make this kind of conclusion coz..its just the beginning...and its always sweetness in the beginning...(I hope not) maybe im just being cautious...i always wish time will stop when i am with him...the kind of enjoyment...happiness...and suaningness...haha...the fun that we are having...the laughter just cant seems to stop...i know at times he is angry with me with the lateness..."Im sorry dear"...i will really try to be on time in future...it will all starts with meeting friends to go school...i will try not to be late...but instead waiting for them to come...i really didnt mean to be late...sometimes i hate myself for that also!

Other than that nothing much really pissed him off ba...heee...at this first month...we did get anything for each others...which i myself find it quite rare lah...coz last time used to get things and i feel so happy abt getting things...but this time round...just by seeing him alone...i think is more than enough le...and seeing him laughing away...that really makes my day! hee...maybe all the material stuffs is no longer worth it ba? i dont know...but i still made him a pop up card! i personally find it nice lah...i dont know abt him...but looking at his expression while reading it... he seems touched hee...i feel so happy! hee...as usual easily contented! ahah at first i was thinking maybe he might buy me some chocolate? haha...

while we walking along the road to my house....it reminded me of the first day we got together... the "holding hands" incident! so sweet...the words he said ill never forget! haha...he is so adorable! ahaha..i miss G n J le! cant wait to see them!! haha...

This week i feel so great! coz term break! then no TC! wah! thats really superb! haha...so wonderful!moreover can meet him...hee but not to forget to do my project also.....sometimes i might think that after being attached.. i have lesser time for family and frens...but on the other hand i found someone whom i m can so much comfortably be with....will it affect my sch work? i think no ba...i will still do my work and meet the deadline...just seldom get online thats all! haha that doesnt mean i dont do work! haha..i hope he is coping well too!! hee...ok lah i go do my work now le hee.e...blog again! dear i miss u so much!

Our neoprints

Ha ha...These are the neo prints that we took! i think they are superbly lovely! haha what u all think?

22/8/2005 Love grows stronger and stronger

This date not to be forgotten! hee thats when i got attached to Ah Bron....hee...i feel so happy.. dont know y...initially still ok...How we get together..to me is quite funny leh haha...i was in sch.. and he was at work...then we were MSN chat then i told him i dreamt of him...he asked me what abt the dream...then i told him i dreamt that we were together...then he asked...u want meh....haha then i asked him back the same question also loh...haha...then in the end we confess lah...haha then im still so blur loh...i didnt know we were together le....until we met on that day to go home together...then i know! haha...how blur can i get! haha so 22th August...our first day together! hee

so far...the relationship been going pretty well...we have so much in common i feel...from food to dialect to thinking to frequency...we seems to be always thinking of the same thing at the same time...we are somewhat too alike! haha..dont good or bad! coz i always heard pple saying...opposite attracts...vice versa! haha but i feel good to have someone understanding n show respect to me loh...yes i admit sometimes i feel insecure with him...he asked me that question yesterday..."u have no confident in me?" hmm i wanted to say a little bit...afterall we know each others for not long and together also for not long...i think i need a little time to really know him inside out...maybe he is not good in action....he is good in his words...every single word he said touches my heart...and of coz every little thing he did...touches me too...

we are both too tired of the past relationship loh...maybe we wanna be careful for this relationship...we dont wanna lose each others for small little matter...its hard to find the "someone" ...we cant promise each others anything but for now i just wish that he is the last one ba...i dont know if he feels that way too...

I have met up with his sis lynn n his family....i feel good about it...coz it makes me know more abt him...and their family members are really nice! hee...i got a sense of attachment to their family loh hahaha...he met mine too...i guess it should be ok lah haha my family are nice pple... hee...and Joshua n Georgia!! haha i love them!! haha they are so adorable!! hee bought toys for them! heee intending to buy mooncake and then ill be like santas claus! haha giving away presents! haha i like that feeling loh! haha... ok lah this is the update of my life for now!...got to go back and do my homework loh! hee i really enjoyed all the times spending with him! hee and i miss him so much now! hee...

LAzy and Lazy...

How lazy can i get? im just too lazy to do my china project~ arg~~why am i so reluctant? y cant i just finish it and continue with my life! arg!! why??? so sian!! now in school...gonna skip 7-9 lect...coz im just too sian to attend...and i want to finish the report tonight by hook or by crook! arg! then tomorrow will be an easy day for me!...whole day gonna be buang! haha coz after lesson i guess ill be meeting ah bron? for his bdae? i still dont know what to get for him...hmmm.. may my creativity work! haha...

Today quite a bad day also! raining..then i forgot to bring $$...i reminded myself alot of times liao yet...haii...still forget...how sad isnt it?and i always dont like to borrow money from frens de...haha but today bo bian! haha ok i think i going irc to search for my books le...seriously i have no direction! haii...i just wanna do what i can first ba! haii...i dont like thurs! haha..i wish Next wed to come faster! so that i can down 1 module! hao le...blog again.....

SDE reunion!

Wah!!! Yesterday was great!! haha...for a sec...i thought i was back in China! haha Able to see Wayne n audrey...just make me happy! hee..then angeline they all came...then infront got junwei daniel...wah! really leh! that moment! back in shanghai! how cool!! i really missed those days!!
Guess its really never gonna be the same again...all those memories back then will be kept in my heart ... how i wish time could just stop there!...well the impossible! haha...today..i just feel like sitting with them during lecture...but but...i know not very nice to put aeroplanes on my other frens lah...MY eyes keep bioing that area loh!but i was really happy to see the whole SDE reunite! haha...

Then...initially meeting him for dinner but ended up...nope...haii...sometimes also dont know what exactly he wants! then he called at night to help him check some stuffs...coz he taking leave on fri(his bdae) to meet up with a girl in the morning who can only spend 3 hrs with him...asking me where got jap food..or recreational activities...haii...then who am i to him?secretary?huh?i really dont know lah!

Well...then i got to chat with IVan...someone i just got to know...chatting with him was really comfortable...coz i can sense that he is those fun-loving kind...out-going etc...we were planning to go airport...till i realised oh no got superstar! haha so too bad...i was so excited! at least i know he meant it to bring me there n explain his job n take pics! what abt him? i just dont feel the sincerity...haii...i just love to be in the airport...the quiteness...the nite view...the planes...the nice atmosphere! haha..just love it! haha...For a sec...i nearly wanna forgo my superstar just to go airport with ivan! haha...airport seems to make me crazy! haha...

well got to go back sch later to do out china project! haii! next week gonna present n hand in yet we are like still 0. haii hopefully things go well tomorrow! hee...getting a little sleepy le haha...update again...

What do I want?

Yesterday was a great day!Had lots of fun with My rakchuay frens...went dinner then ktv...sing n sing...a apparently the girl at the counter is ah ping's fren so...we sing till abt 12+ aahah the bill yet to come but we ask for it! haha...then after that supper....then home sweet home!

all along i have been thinking abt these 2 guys...and im very unsure which i like more...haha until yesterday...i fully understand who i like more...i just cant help thinking of that person for the whole outing last night! arg!In fact is now n then...At least now im very sure of my own feelings le...for now lah...but i dont know abt his...and i dont wanna ask him also...i just wanna let nature take its course loh...but my character...argg...hard to control...

Alot of things i dont understand also loh...why would he likes me?Firstly...we about the same height...n i think im heavier than him loh! arg!!...With normal man's ego...they will like meh? secondly...not as if im some angel or what...there are lots of good n nice looking girls out there mah...dont understand...

but nvm...am i thinking too much?what if he only treats me as good fren? i dont wanna have the wrong intention lah..hope everything will turn out well ba! hee...

Half time break!

ok i think i will stop the pics for a while first...there are more to come lah!! but i think i will write on something else first...heee...

Something keeps bothering me...haii it was all my fault! i went out with angeline,tr,gy,yy,yz on sat...to celebrate gy bdae...we went to this jap restaurant at Meridien... then after that decided to go to indo chimes at clarke quay...i didnt wanna go lah! but in the end i still go!

Then we drink n play n drink ... and when everyone is just lying down...me n gy play n drink..till i drunk! arg!! i know i am drunk lah...coz i keep asking the rest to help me with my dizziness! i vomitted and stuff lah...it was really a terrible feelings..uncontrollable! thinking of it makes me feel like vomitting again!... well the sad thing here is not only this...

I was smsing Bron...well..do i like him in the first place or not? or does he like me? hmm so many unsureness...talking abt him reminds me of the kiss on the cheek i gave him! all becoz of mine stupid thinking that he might not find where exactly my blk is haha..but i was wrong! haha.. but im quite hee happy lah ...

back to the sat incident...i wasnt too happy lah...i also dont know y leh! was it becoz he never come n fetch me? while yuzhu's bf came instead? was it because he hang up my phone?was it because i feel that i left a super duper bad impression for him? what was it? arg...the next day when he told me he didnt play well for soccer...and be reserved next week...was i the problem? hmmm i just feel bad n guilty!

I think i am taking things really slowly...coz i just dont want to turn out to be something bad again...im quite tired with relationships le...sometimes just wanna be alone...i just wanna protect myself! who knows he is just another guy ... i dont want loh...i think im enough of this ! haha well.. i should take it easily!

Im just really thinking leh...are we both liking each others? what kind of guy he actually is? hmm just too many doubts! but i know its really comfortable talking to him...and i just feel comfortable loh...first time meeting a fren that i dont know yet still in close contact...haha... ok lah...i think i shant talk abt him le...

kenny the chicken went tioman for holidays liao! wonder if he is having fun! haha i miss crapping with him liao! haha come back soon! haha...i wish something BIG will happen to him man! haha..

then i went for a singing audition..."rhapsody 05" hmmm participated with guiying last yr...now trying out solo...i sang "zhu wo sheng ri kuai le" by landy..i was nervous like dont know what lah! haha ... but im glad its over! whatever the results will be...i wont be too much affected lah! hee.. so glad to be able to see huili again! haha...

ok i got to prepare myself for the gathering later! haha a mini dinner first then a grp of 9 of us! KTV session! haha finally! haha another gathering! haha and the Dannies...seems to sing zai one leh! haha...i got the feelings lah! haha i will know it tonight! haha cant wait for the time to pass! haha...ok ...i think i wrote pretty long le...shall update again!

Our living environment

Alright! this is where we live...where we hang around for the 7-8 days...where we do our "business" etc...hee..its not that bad right? personally i think is great loh! hee then right side of the pic of toilet bowl is their church :) we attended their service on sunday! hee i love their singing! hee...yeah...as for the preaching i dont understand lah coz in thai mah..i nearly fall asleep i must admit! hee but i show respect lah! so i never sleep yeah! hee...

Here are the lovely kids

How lovely and adorable they are!! i really miss them lots lots!! especially my chiobu!! haha cant wait to visit them again...

The sunglassers! haha

Well all of us trying to be lao da here! haha and i think huiping looks very sian in that pic! haha machiam her subordinates have all change bang! haha...opss...crapz...

The 4 of us!

These are the 4 of us! Who were in lawat! from 10 to 4! i starting to really miss the rest! royce...benny etc...its hard to have the same group of people to travel again! only a few of us! hee but im really happy to travel with fred,ping n roy again! hee

Thailand Trip

These are taken before we go up to the village! with uncle sam...finally we have the same clothings hahaa how cool!!

Thailand Trip

These are pics taken on the 11th July...The first where most of us touched down at Chiang Mai airport. How nice to look at them again n again! hee

Thailand trip part 3

Phew...finished typing my feeling for each and everyone of them...hahaa....im very happy with this trip just that dont have enough time to interact with the other bunk pple...i just feel thats a waste lah...think we should all stay in the same bunk like that better! but overall i think it is a fun n enriching trip...though im going for the second time...it feels different totally...pple are different...experience is different...this time round we went to more n more places....like going to vegetable farm...pluck out the vegetable and carry the basket!! oh man! it was heavy...xiaoyan was my partner...we carry up up up man! not easy and i am really amazed n impressed to those villagers!

I think i should say abt the dam first haha...to n fro...oh man! actually this is something im really scared of! haha not because of tireness but slipperyness! oh man...coz it rained ...then the muddy road really is slippery! haha...it has been really fun n a really good form of exercise!we built the dams...using all the weapons! haha and our bare hands oso...haha to dig the earth to put into the sack and become sandbag!dirty is not a big deal lah...it was really fun to cross lots n lots of obstacle!!haha the logs...the muddy road n water...those branches and others....woo it was really an experience...

haiyo im very very tired! haha...coz the last night didnt really sleep much...haha.....maybe i will have a thailand trip part 4 when i m more awake haha

Thailand trip...part 2

Think the previous entry is too long...haha so now i shall have thailand trip part 2

Dannies ~ Ha ha..this tall big eyes guy...been our topic for the girls haha...anyway during meeting and stuffs we didnt really communicate much...it was until at the trip itself then friendship starts to grow....aah and all the crappiness starts when i saw the wrong nick of his! haha it was accidentally typed as lovegreengirl for his nick also! haha i was laughing till i drop...haha during the trip i get to know him better! he is a MCP lah...seldom or never see him at the back of the kitchen after dinner to wash the plates when is our turn for duty...haha..he always call me He xiao jie! haha me n ping mei...gugu gaga over him lah...haha...maybe coz out of the 5 he is tall...very attract attention ba...hahaha...really nice to have homestay with him...haha

Shen ~ This guy ... at first i thought he will have lots of stories to say ... coz when we interviewed him...he can speak n speak n speak! haha...didnt really interact with him during the trip also coz different bunk again...but towards the end got to talk to him for a while...think he is a very nice guy lah...hee wish to know him better here in singapore man! hahaha

Joyce ~ She is one spontaneous girl! no complains...and she likes to joke also...and she can laugh like dont know what also...i think she is a good laughing partner...i think if others know her well.. they will know that her laughter can be contagious too! haha ... very cute girl to be with...full of crap also...glad i had that little time to interact with her at the night market! haha...

Zhihao ~ Ha ha he is my bathing partner...appreciated that memories where we bathed together...hehe i meant at the same time but different cubical1 hahaaha just beside lah...then can talk talk ...can crap with him...haha...he is a law student leh!! no play play!! but he doesnt look like 1!!! haha...but i must admit he is a real talented guy!!! he plays the guitar...the drums..and he can really sing!! oh dear!! haha...and i see the way he treated ratweesarah...haha like a loving father!! haha...really!! he is too good to be true!think he is a very good friend to be with man!!!

Caixin ~ She ah sweet sweet de...but a good gossiper partner also haha...i feel so happy for her that she found her mr right! haha ... all those climbing to the worksite and back...shows that she is a pretty strong girl woh! haha...i can also see the loving side of her towards the kids! haha ...

Ginette ~ Tulipy...My SP! haha im so happy that she was my SP haha can get to know her a little better...think she is a mature girl...i dont know y but thats how i feel lah...she gave me this gift that is in green! so thoughtful! haha ...to put tissue box de...so sweet of her loh!! haha...

Dacia ~ She and Zhihao...always quarrel and quarrel.....but to me is a form of entertainment! haha...get to know her in sde but only really really communicate with her during my thailand trip...woo as expected...i know she very garang de...hee and daring and really adorable! haha homestay with her was great! hee...we laughed and we joked and shake pak aik's house ! haha... she is a small eater! haha...and will not forget how we had a hard time finishing our meals at pak aik's house...not that the food not nice...but the rice was given too much! i dare not touch those vege coz i didnt wanna get to full and cant finish the rice! haha and dont think is nice not to finish up the food! haha we had a hard time eating but we also had great fun there! ahhaa it was really fun girl!! hee

Thailand Trip...Part 1

Back from thailand....11th to 20th...oh no man...im so blessed that i went there..with a group of pple...just wanna mention there here....

Cindy ~ Liang Pei...haiyo this girl...at first i thought she is a quiet girl ... i know she is very active and a strong girl...she is tanned..and she is in dragon boat loh...haha...so i know she is siao ons one...but dont know why first few days she was quite tired but slowly slowly very slowly she showed her true colour...muahaha she is a siao girl leh...she sings well..and she craps well...her pronounciation on liang pei...chirapak and pak aik...simple make my day!! her laughter can make her looks so cute...when she smiles we cant see her eyes de...then give the blur blur face de...haha trip wouldnt be complete without u girl!!

Xiao Yan ~ This girl...haha i love her man! coz she is my partner for gossiping...hee i will not forget those days in village where we have our part 1-4a...haha oh dear...what is life gonna be if she is not around to gossip with me...and the ranking of those guys! haha...it was really fun girl! u are really fun loving to be with leh!! and how can i forget the day where we play vball together? where we got really painful yet still crazy abt vball? we just love to self torture ourselves right? its really nice to have common topic with ya!!!

Peiyan ~ I chatted with this girl a few days before we went to thailand...hee..i enjoyed chatting with her...and we shared about stuffs like school and how much we dislike to go school...our school problem...i didnt really get the chance to really interact with her...coz we were in different bunk..overall she is one who is more of introvert girl....

Huiping ~ This girl here really impressed me alot alot....this is the second time we travel together...i saw her leadership quality...and i know it has been hard for her...but she did it and did it well!!well done girl! i get to know her much much more better for this trip...not much of conflict...in fact i should say not at all...except maybe with another person haha...i really enjoyed working with her...haha Most iMportantly...we had the saMe interest with this guy..haha... how cool that makes us closer...ahaha its so good to have same common topic! haha and of coz gossiping abt X! haha this is everyone;s common topic! haha...i really enjoyed traveling with her.. hope there will be another time!

Roy ~ Hmm...this guy...i just feel that something is not very right...just feel that he likes to complain alot alot...and he doesnt seems to know how to make the right decision...whenever he said he didnt want to do something...he eventually did it but complained abt it during the course of doing it...im alittle disappointed though...i know he gave me lots of help...but i just feel that something wasnt right lah...then those little kids saying we are together...haiyo i was seriously alittle pissed abt it...haii...coz i dont like him...i treat him as sister and fren thats all...so being teased again and again...not a good feeling...

Fred ~ Second time traveling together...also dont know what to say...some stuffs that i dont agreed with during our meeting and discussion...but well its all over and i am really glad the whole program was a success!hee...

Janice ~ She ah...the first time i saw her...was during interview...and i think she is those ang mo pai de...hee...i know she is enthu and active and a very onz girl! hee i was right! i enjoyed her company..those not the same bunk...but hey hey...i think she is really a nice girl!!

X ~ ermm...she hor....is basically giving us lots of headache! alamak...how can i forget what she said."You smell nice". oh dear...hahaha aiya i think no point talking abt her alone here...gossiped is needed! hahaha...

Shanghai...i am Coming!

Hello all ...

Wanna blog before i leave ba......hmmm i feel pretty tired coz been waking up early for the mup... then the dust wooo...power.....then workers walk in and out...hmm quite jialat... then parents have to sleep in my room...wah...but everything will be over for me tonight! haha i will be flying off! haha.....115am flight....hmmm i hope project is not too tough...playing is fun enough...and weather is cool enough ( iguess its gonna be hot...) haha ok lah just wanna keep my bag as light as possible.....so that come back can have more space haha...haha ok lah i will keep this short oso...hee...if i can use internet over there...i will try to blog loh haha.....

23 days not in singapore...how cool! haha ok ill take care! hee u guys too! yeah!!!

Lin