Morning seesion

Hmm...now is 1:49 am! And I'm still awake!! Why? Haii...got work to do!!! Speech day coming and I'm the emcee i/c...Preparing the scripts for Fri's rehearsal! I think I am like cut into many pieces!! suffocating!...Lets take a look at my responsibility in school:

1) Assistant Level Rep
2) Maths Coodinator (SSM and PLS)
3) Maths Level Rep
4) NE/SS Committee
5) CCA assistant i/c ( But Im like the i/c?) haha

5 only!! But there are more duties to it...dont think anyone can imagine.......and i have to wake up in few hours time...really dont like morning session. It's like sleep is never enough! I really buay tong liao...printing the 20 pages script now..once done...I think i'll concuss...my only worried is cant wake up later.trying to wake up 530am...but dont think i can do it!! worst come to worst 6am loh!! haha looking forward for a better day soon...

Sweet afterall...

Wanted to take a short nap...ended up looking through what I have been doing all these years...deleted some of the entries as I felt weird having them here...kept the most memorable ones.. the funniest thing is some entries there are double... I was quite confused but after reading the 2, I realised the one that was kept draft was something more personal that cannot be posted...I find it pretty funny haha...now I really think I shouldnt be lazy as the blog really keeps memories that I have forgotten!!! Even at this point of time...it still give the sweet memories between 19/10 - 4/12... That kind of memories...how should I put it...is like will never be forgotten...Maybe thats life...people tends to find things more precious without having it. But anyway...after reading the past, question do come to my mind like what happened to us back then??? Nothing happened is the most strange and funny words to say...but still I am really happy and give my blessing for his happiness. Congratulations!! Looking forward for the wedding dinner!!

Hmm...hungry now gonna find some food.....

ciao

Wonder if anyone still read my blog? haha

4 years!!!..I have disappeared for 4 long years!!! haha...what have I been doing?
Actually Im just being lazy to blog...Ever since I started working, to on the computer makes me feel tired...hee... anyway lets recall...

1) Got married on 28/12/08
2) Went to Japan for honeymoon
3) Got my job in teaching
4) Got my house

etc etc...

Maybe just post a few pictures to do a better recall...


My First teaching class

Our auto upgrade to business in Cathay Pacific to Thailand! Shiok

Working with Banjoo! Nice people!

Rawa Island! so relaxing


Wedding pics

After Bridal Shoot


Trip to Japan

Racial Harmony Day

Hmm, some pics a bit blur ah but nvm lah... haha Yawnzzz... now morning session... very tiring! although I have the whole afternoon but I'm not use to sleeping early and wake up early... now feel like floating ... Alrighty...Do drop me a comment if you do drop by...ciao!! Ph Happy New Year!!

Some good photos!

Just wanna post some memorable photos here...After 24 yrs...this is wat my parents n i have been waiting for loh! haha..It was a pretty tiring day...wearing sthg so heavy...carrying so many things...and with heels! haha..can die lah..but i really had lots of fun...especially when my baby took half day off to accompany me...hee greatly appreciated! haha...

This is me loh with my graduation gown...and my lion!! haha dear dear bought for me! haha..so nice! haha

Me and my lovely papa n mama! hee...sob sob kor has to work...

Now...With my dear dear and family! haha

And Me and dear dear!!!

Group pics!

The usually hangout gang!

Post more soon...hee

Everything is fine i guess...

I feel better after screaming at him while crying is as loud...but at the same time i feel terribly bad for screaming at him this way...i get so agitated because he simply dont see the problem...but anyway...the sun rises...I feel better...Maybe i just need someone to listen to me...haha...haha...ok lah this morning went photo taking at cisco...so hot!! but ok lah...it only took 10s like that...loh...haha dont know whether it looks like not...i dont want it to become like my matric card...then i will pengz....haha its going to stay for a while with me lah this card! hee...i got my stock taking job!! steady!like that i will have my income! haha...finally i can start earning $$$ haha...tonight got tuition!! and after 1 month i finally can get my pay!!! kaoz...its like 2 months get 1 pay!! crap! and this kid is troublesome!! ahha..but nvm loh...just go and play! haha..Outz...getting better

What do people do on Sunday?

Someone told me..."i need to study i cant meet u tomorrow"...in the end? Study alittle...WATCH VCD....LYING AROUND ON THE BED....GO PLAY SOCCER...THE MOMENT I HEAR YOUR VOICE IRRITATES ME! I think u are saying u miss me for the sake of saying....say wanna meet also for the sake of saying...coz in the end u are only doing ur "STUFFS" or rather "STUDYING"...Im attached? aM I? SATURDAY AND SUNDAY at HOME! Even my parents ask...why i never go out...AM i not being considerate? I thought U WANT TO STUDY....BUT WAS SO DISAPPOINTED THAT U ARE NOT WAT....SO YOU SAID U MISS ME BUT DO NOTHING BUT STAY HOME LYING ON THE STUPID BED WATCHING UR STUPID VCD...whatever lah...this is not how im gonna carry out my life...My sat n sun shall not be boring anymore!...i dont care where i go or what i do...just dont wanna have anything to do with u...coz u NEVER THINK OF ME....outz...crap

My "doggy" is finally 1 yr old!!!

haiyo..i have been like playing it for so long...but it just turned 1 yr old!!! crap right?...haha...coz this one very easily reset by pressing 2 buttons together in the middle...so...i put inside my bag... and i keep accidentally reset it! aiyo...haha so now it finally survive for 1 DAY! ahha...My the other tamagotchi...still cant find the right battery! will look into it man! haha...But it was kindda paisei...when i bring it out...like so kiddish...but at least can keep me company when i was bored in train etc....haha...but i hide it inside my bag and play loh! haha...Just had dinner...still feeling a little tired...maybe of the great loss of blood...so heavy...heaviest ever! ahah..Outz...

Do i care what pple think of me? yes..i do...

I didnt have a good sleep yesterday...I dont feel comfortable...I was telling myself...I swear I wont go to his house if there are other pple staying...what will they think of me? And what other gossips can they talk abt? I just dont like it...and NOONE actually care for my feeling and sleep like everything is normal...I dont like "tired" as an excuse or reason...coz u are always tired.You dont even ask me whats wrong...sometimes i really ponder...are u really the one i want to marry to? Are u the one that make me live one day with no regrets upon my decision? I dont understand y ur house so small still got so many different pple wanna stay...I am one of them ... For a while i was thinking...what the shit did i get myself into? I have my own bed...own room...own freedom to do whatever i want...own aircon...dont have to consider what pple think or say or where they sleep....Why is it always happily out...sadly go back...I want to start working...i want to see the outside world...I want to be busy...I dont want to do nothing...I am so happy at my own home..own comfort zone...i just wanna stay here forever...I forced myself to sleep because i want the night to pass faster so that i can go home...and only myself hiding at one corner...trying to console myself...trying to convince myself that everything will be fine...which is not...Im so glad im home now...and i wanna stay home longer....Outz to sleep

What have i been doing?

My mouse is spoilt..!! crap...left click cannot be use...now im using the old one...which is also quite difficult to be used...sob...maybe go buy later...hai...feeling bored....yesterday..went IMM with my parents...bought a waffle maker...and i just made some...hee not too bad...hee...then i also bought sudoku from popular ... $5 bucks...for a small booklet...in my 3/4 of my trip from jurong to amk...i didnt manage to finish a difficult puzzle...but finishing lah...haha i start from the back...which is the difficult part..i think the easy one no kick lah! hahah...I was so bored...i going to buy battery for my tamaguchi...haha and my "doggiguchi" haha...

Haha the doggy actually is mine then the tamaguchi is my bro's...hahaso i must go buy battery!! haha..wonder if my house downstairs got sell...My house downstairs...that econ sell things very ex lah...haii...Later i will go check it out haha... excited lah! haha..wanna play! hee...Outz

左边 by 杨丞琳

总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪 你才会给安慰
担心 短暂的晴天 随时都可能 被阴霾收回
等待 有机会最坏也最甜美 我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你 所以连快乐里 都装满伤悲

**你不曾发觉 你总是用右手 牵着我
但是心却跳动 在左边
你和我之间的遥远 永远隔着亲切 爱少的可怜
伸出右手 想陪着你向前走 感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我 想信你会了解

(你一定看的见)

总在埋怨过你的冷漠 之后又急着说抱歉
彷佛向疏远的你 乞求一点体贴 都是我不对
结果有可能最美也最可悲 我做好了准备
也许太自由的你 心里面那个家 谁也不能回 **

我一直相信 总有一天
你会用左手 牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远 却会实现 心在同一边 就能够
听见 你说的那句 我爱你**

I feel so sad

Choice 1) Go his house stay over but sleep with his parents...coz his sister's family staying
Choice 2) Go own home and sleep...

8 people 2 rooms....CAn u make a sensible choice? Isnt it obvious? Choice 2... Im nothing to that family...how can i go and sleep over to squeeze with them...and wheh his parents will have to sleep on mattress?How can i bear to do this to them? Cant u use ur brain? Cant u even explain nicely? appropriately?As usual the plan is ruined....I know is not his fault...coz he doesnt know also...iM selfish if i blame on him...im not angry...im just very sad that even he knows his sisters coming over still ask me to go...Sometimes i really wonder where is his brain....Still dare to tell me sleep where sleep with who who sleep where....haii...He thinks he knows everything...yet zero...

Anyway...that makes me no mood to continue doing anything...so decided to go home early...haii.. spoilt...so watching tv now...bored...

Anyway this noon went with huili for an initerview...i see it more as a briefing...its a 1 week stock taking job...pretty not bad hopefully got it...bought a gio shorts and a cardigan...both in pink! hmmm why am i so in pink recently? haha...ok outz

~~PoRrIdGe~~

Im feeling pretty tired now...i woke up 6+am then decided not to sleep...so i decided to make some porridge for my dear dear...he is having sore throat...poor him...so i went ntuc to get some pork liver...It is my first time choosing ...hmm i guess is not too bad...haha and is oso my first time cooking porridge...so my 911 call goes out to of coz my parents...haha..they are my recipe...hee so then i managed to come out with porridge...hee...it taste pretty not bad...i feel haha...he said not bad lah...so i went woodlands to meet him for lunch...then went shop shop and i finally bought a running shoes!! Haha...i am alittle ambitious..wanna do yoga...kick boxing...aerobic dance...but well i think i will choose lah...hee yah then no afternoon i feel like sleeping!! haha..nappy time.......OutZ

Up and working!!

Hee...I tHink im really too free lah...nothing to do..then decided to choose a skin that is provided by blogger...coz its simple and is in green!...Spent some time doing the pics...hee some are too small to be seen...but nvm lah next time then i do it again! haha..yesterday went out with my secondary sch friends...its a small gathering with chentat,kk,kk,cuihuan,xinger,xiuyan...hee it was great...after some time nv meet up...as usual lah the click all crappers..haha..joke here and there...we went Love Fish n co...then after that went TCC for a drink of coffer...me, kk and cuihuan were too full lah...so we decided to share ...we ordered...this Iced minty mocha! haha well not much of minty and its a bit too sweet leh...haha iM always a fan of mint...so will prefer drink thats minty...it gives a cool refreshing feeling...hmmm just now...got dont know what planes...keep flying pass my house area...scare me to hell lah...i tot 911 is coming to singapore! haha it was so loud lo!! so so loud!I was thinking maybe its once a yr national day rehersal? haii..my ears...but nvm as long as its not 911...haha...and yesterday there was a huge fire lah!! near my house...its at ave 10...big carpark got 1 big lorry on fire 1!!! phew...and the black smoke!! haha i can see only the smoke lah...as for y i know is a lorry? haha my parents just happened to pass by there in a bus after work...and they..too curious so went to kpokpo...and there i know loh! haha wonder if the news got put? haha i missed the news though...haaha

Hmm.. today is rotting at home le loh...boring..but baby is coming over for dinner...hee..baby having sore throat hope will recover soon! hee

After so long....

...After so long...i decided to write again...not because Im feeling down...just feel like updating my blog...I was searching high and low to find skin and how to organise my stuffs..but after so long of searching i still use back this skin...haha...i added a song...which i personally like alot...I heard it on 绿光森林 show...oh..the show is so nice!! hee....We have been together for 9 Months coming to 10th...time seems to pass so fast! I have been to bangkok 2 times this yr ...1 with him and 1 with parents. then i also went rawa island...with yee...hui...pacer...the island is really nice...for relaxation!...we went kayaking...snorkeling...feed the fishes...the people there are nice...the food there are fantastic!show pic...soon...havent scan those water pics in! haha...everyday eat till full till wanna vomit de! haha..but it was really superb!

The most interesting night is the last night...we mix around with the pple there...and oh man...one of the waiter can play the piano so well!!...Im so impressed! haha...then in the end we all join in with his gang...and pacer's piano skill is awesome!! alamak! then in the end i sing a few songs...so malu! But really enjoy it! haha...then recently i went phuket...ahaha did jetskiing...i was scared lah...so lousy!! but my baby infront of me...so i was hugging him tight haha...he is very naughty!! Keeps going faster and i kept screaming behind loh! haaha...it was fun! he continued with parasailing! aiyoyo..that one i really scared! so i didnt attempt...But Bravo to my baby!! haha Everything there talks $$$ so luckily we have cheaper hotel! My student's parents hotel! cool right?! hee...then we had dinner at this savoery seafood restaurant!...wow!! we ate a total of abt 70 sing dollar of seafood...Got lobster....Fish....clam...sotong!...so yummy!! i think is cheap!! for 2 person! and got lobster lah1 hee..We also went Phi Phi island for snorkeling...And tour around some of the islands...and mountain? rocks? haha....I was alittle piss with baby...coz... he keep screaming at me while we in the sea! I dont like it...but its over lah haha...and he gave me a RING!Not to propose lah! haha...but to confirm that i will not run away? haha...Then basically im still having holidays now! pretty rot lah! haha...nothing to do...I am a teacher to be loh...starting 24th july! will be a primary sch teacher! i admit i love kids but i wonder if i can control a class of kids?! haha..lets see...i will go thru the training first and see if im suitable loh haha...ok lah i will stop...meeting baby..and dont wanna be late...update soon! hee

What is love?

Sometimes i really ponder...however...i learnt the meaning of love as compromising....understanding...trust...sensitivity...concern and lots and lots of other things! Is not easy to handle a relationship i must say...recently...we have alittle arguement on certain things...his fickle mindedness and indecisiveness...i mean i cant just look at the bad points and forget about his good points and leave him aside....if im so then ill be very selfish...if in the past maybe i was like that ba....now i learnt to compromise ba! think thats a very important factor in a relationship... i guess it is very important to give and take....i know at times im a little stubborn...but thats me mah...cant help it...he said he will change....but i know i have to change my attitude also lah! so stubborn !! haha...

but so far i must say...he is the best bf i ever had loh...i still love him so much!! as much as the sand in the dessert....as much as the water flowing from the tap.....as much as the stars in the sky......simply uncountable loh! does he know that? its not anger that i had for him...but is disappointment and sadness.! but i guess thats life and we grow thru all these mistakes. we have been meeting.....and im happy abt it ...... long way ahead of us and i hope we can both work together on it ( relationship)....yeah!!!

22/9/05 (Guess whats the occasion?)

Its 1 Month monthiversary! haha so so happy! it seems like the first day we get together but on the other hand...it seems like we are together for quite long le! hee..i dont know how to describe this feelings of mine! so far...i have been enjoying being so in loved! haha ...so mushy! haha...i just never felt so happy n xinfu before...but is he really the final one? hmmm...i have been pondering.. and of coz i definitely hope that he will be the last man standing with me at ROM haha...but i dare not make this kind of conclusion coz..its just the beginning...and its always sweetness in the beginning...(I hope not) maybe im just being cautious...i always wish time will stop when i am with him...the kind of enjoyment...happiness...and suaningness...haha...the fun that we are having...the laughter just cant seems to stop...i know at times he is angry with me with the lateness..."Im sorry dear"...i will really try to be on time in future...it will all starts with meeting friends to go school...i will try not to be late...but instead waiting for them to come...i really didnt mean to be late...sometimes i hate myself for that also!

Other than that nothing much really pissed him off ba...heee...at this first month...we did get anything for each others...which i myself find it quite rare lah...coz last time used to get things and i feel so happy abt getting things...but this time round...just by seeing him alone...i think is more than enough le...and seeing him laughing away...that really makes my day! hee...maybe all the material stuffs is no longer worth it ba? i dont know...but i still made him a pop up card! i personally find it nice lah...i dont know abt him...but looking at his expression while reading it... he seems touched hee...i feel so happy! hee...as usual easily contented! ahah at first i was thinking maybe he might buy me some chocolate? haha...

while we walking along the road to my house....it reminded me of the first day we got together... the "holding hands" incident! so sweet...the words he said ill never forget! haha...he is so adorable! ahaha..i miss G n J le! cant wait to see them!! haha...

This week i feel so great! coz term break! then no TC! wah! thats really superb! haha...so wonderful!moreover can meet him...hee but not to forget to do my project also.....sometimes i might think that after being attached.. i have lesser time for family and frens...but on the other hand i found someone whom i m can so much comfortably be with....will it affect my sch work? i think no ba...i will still do my work and meet the deadline...just seldom get online thats all! haha that doesnt mean i dont do work! haha..i hope he is coping well too!! hee...ok lah i go do my work now le hee.e...blog again! dear i miss u so much!

Our neoprints

Ha ha...These are the neo prints that we took! i think they are superbly lovely! haha what u all think?

22/8/2005 Love grows stronger and stronger

This date not to be forgotten! hee thats when i got attached to Ah Bron....hee...i feel so happy.. dont know y...initially still ok...How we get together..to me is quite funny leh haha...i was in sch.. and he was at work...then we were MSN chat then i told him i dreamt of him...he asked me what abt the dream...then i told him i dreamt that we were together...then he asked...u want meh....haha then i asked him back the same question also loh...haha...then in the end we confess lah...haha then im still so blur loh...i didnt know we were together le....until we met on that day to go home together...then i know! haha...how blur can i get! haha so 22th August...our first day together! hee

so far...the relationship been going pretty well...we have so much in common i feel...from food to dialect to thinking to frequency...we seems to be always thinking of the same thing at the same time...we are somewhat too alike! haha..dont good or bad! coz i always heard pple saying...opposite attracts...vice versa! haha but i feel good to have someone understanding n show respect to me loh...yes i admit sometimes i feel insecure with him...he asked me that question yesterday..."u have no confident in me?" hmm i wanted to say a little bit...afterall we know each others for not long and together also for not long...i think i need a little time to really know him inside out...maybe he is not good in action....he is good in his words...every single word he said touches my heart...and of coz every little thing he did...touches me too...

we are both too tired of the past relationship loh...maybe we wanna be careful for this relationship...we dont wanna lose each others for small little matter...its hard to find the "someone" ...we cant promise each others anything but for now i just wish that he is the last one ba...i dont know if he feels that way too...

I have met up with his sis lynn n his family....i feel good about it...coz it makes me know more abt him...and their family members are really nice! hee...i got a sense of attachment to their family loh hahaha...he met mine too...i guess it should be ok lah haha my family are nice pple... hee...and Joshua n Georgia!! haha i love them!! haha they are so adorable!! hee bought toys for them! heee intending to buy mooncake and then ill be like santas claus! haha giving away presents! haha i like that feeling loh! haha... ok lah this is the update of my life for now!...got to go back and do my homework loh! hee i really enjoyed all the times spending with him! hee and i miss him so much now! hee...

LAzy and Lazy...

How lazy can i get? im just too lazy to do my china project~ arg~~why am i so reluctant? y cant i just finish it and continue with my life! arg!! why??? so sian!! now in school...gonna skip 7-9 lect...coz im just too sian to attend...and i want to finish the report tonight by hook or by crook! arg! then tomorrow will be an easy day for me!...whole day gonna be buang! haha coz after lesson i guess ill be meeting ah bron? for his bdae? i still dont know what to get for him...hmmm.. may my creativity work! haha...

Today quite a bad day also! raining..then i forgot to bring $$...i reminded myself alot of times liao yet...haii...still forget...how sad isnt it?and i always dont like to borrow money from frens de...haha but today bo bian! haha ok i think i going irc to search for my books le...seriously i have no direction! haii...i just wanna do what i can first ba! haii...i dont like thurs! haha..i wish Next wed to come faster! so that i can down 1 module! hao le...blog again.....

SDE reunion!

Wah!!! Yesterday was great!! haha...for a sec...i thought i was back in China! haha Able to see Wayne n audrey...just make me happy! hee..then angeline they all came...then infront got junwei daniel...wah! really leh! that moment! back in shanghai! how cool!! i really missed those days!!
Guess its really never gonna be the same again...all those memories back then will be kept in my heart ... how i wish time could just stop there!...well the impossible! haha...today..i just feel like sitting with them during lecture...but but...i know not very nice to put aeroplanes on my other frens lah...MY eyes keep bioing that area loh!but i was really happy to see the whole SDE reunite! haha...

Then...initially meeting him for dinner but ended up...nope...haii...sometimes also dont know what exactly he wants! then he called at night to help him check some stuffs...coz he taking leave on fri(his bdae) to meet up with a girl in the morning who can only spend 3 hrs with him...asking me where got jap food..or recreational activities...haii...then who am i to him?secretary?huh?i really dont know lah!

Well...then i got to chat with IVan...someone i just got to know...chatting with him was really comfortable...coz i can sense that he is those fun-loving kind...out-going etc...we were planning to go airport...till i realised oh no got superstar! haha so too bad...i was so excited! at least i know he meant it to bring me there n explain his job n take pics! what abt him? i just dont feel the sincerity...haii...i just love to be in the airport...the quiteness...the nite view...the planes...the nice atmosphere! haha..just love it! haha...For a sec...i nearly wanna forgo my superstar just to go airport with ivan! haha...airport seems to make me crazy! haha...

well got to go back sch later to do out china project! haii! next week gonna present n hand in yet we are like still 0. haii hopefully things go well tomorrow! hee...getting a little sleepy le haha...update again...